Out of the Darkness

Devotionals

A Ministry of Hope!

 

Sometimes you have to just sit down, shut up and quit trying to figure it all out. 

 

"But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith!  Mathew 6:30 nasb

 

I am a planner!  I like to map out what is going to happen, make my goals and get to work on it.  But lately I am kind of at a loss as to what to do next.  I try to make plans and they just seem to fall apart.  A clear signal that this is not what God wants for me to do at this time,

 

I can drive myself crazy trying to figure it all out or I can sit down, shut up and just be where I am at until God tells me what to do next.  I don't know what the answers are.  And, I have a really hard time just sitting still.  My friend tells me that I move too fast and if I would just slow down I wouldn't trip so much.  He meant that in a literal meaning because I am truly a clutz, but I think it has allot to do with what is going on right now.  Sit down, shut up, slow down.....and just be!!!  Do what has to be done right now and let the chips fall where they may.

 

Just be quiet.  Another thing I have a really hard time doing.  Yet at the same time the only way to slow down, take a break and truly hear what God is saying is to stop and clear all the other noise out of my head.  Thoughts run to an fro and seek answers.  Yet the very answers I seek cannot be heard because of the busy-ness. 

Another door has slammed shut and I sit in the hallway waiting .... trying to decide which direction to jump next.  I seek the windows and truly need to seek God's face!  What is it that HE wants of me?  And where do I go next?  My life is not my own, yet I am responsible for the road that I take.  So, I take a deep breath and return to my original goals.  My original plans for my life and that which needs to be done.

 

I am calm and my head is clearest when I seek God's business and leave my busyness behind.

 

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew

 


 

When your life is a mess and you don't know where to turn. Run home!

 

Then he said to him, "Come home with me and eat bread." 1 Kings 13:15

 

Home is not a house, a structure or a place to be. Home is what is in your heart and soul. Home is not just a memory it is where you belong. I have searched the world over for a place to belong. A place where I am important and those around me care about who I am and what I believe in. That place has been an elusive dream for many years of my life.

 

Yet, at the same time, my home has been with me all the time. My home is within me, and the one who cares the most about me is Jesus!! To find value I must look at Him. He would not have created me if He did not want me to be here. He leads me to where I need to be if I will just stop pulling on the rope and trying to go my own direction.

 

My value is not measured by who I know and what I have. My value is measured by what is in my heart. If you question your value, look up. Look in the mirror and say "God doesn't make junk"!!! Look around you and find that what is most important is what is closest to your heart. If what is closest to your heart is a "thing", then think again!!! Things rust and go away, the things that are most important are what is deepest in your heart.

 

Uncover them, bring them out and see what's REALLY important! Look up, HE is what is most important. The rest is just dust!!

 

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew

 


 

TALK TO GOD...then shut up and listen.

 

When there are many words then transgression is unavoidable, But he who restrains his lips is wise. Proverbs 10:19

 

I am an analyzer. I can't help it. Its a part of me as much as the color of my eyes. At times I have a tendency to over analyze and thats not a good thing either. I think about things and I think I know whats going on when really I don't! I just think I do.

The best thing for me to do is to deal in hard, cold facts. Which for a person who deals allot with feelings that can be hard to do. But, the facts are this! I don't know the future. God does! And He is so much better at it than I am. I think I know whats going on and in reality I probably don't have a clue and it is best not to try to figure it out. Trust is a key thing when you turn your life over to God. If you don't trust him then there is no faith and faith is key. I trust that I don't have a clue what the future holds. I trust that whether I like the sequence of events or not....Its going to be awesome because God is working in my life.

 

And that is how I want it to be. So no matter how crazy life gets and how much I might think I know whats going on, well....I probably don't. Life is what it is and it's going to happen the way it does no matter how much I kick and scream about it. Live life to GOD's fullest, it's the only way to be truly happy.

 

 (c)copyright 2010 danni

 


 

Just because someone is old enough,

doesn't make them an adult!

 

But when Jesus saw this, He was indignant and said to them, "Permit the children to come to Me; do not hinder them; for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. Mark 10:14

 

In todays world there seems to be a continual battle over children and families. And its the children who hurt the most. Those are the big children, the ones who look grown up and really aren't. the ones whose hearts are still wounded from something happening long ago. The big kids who have gone out into this life without the tools they need to live it.

 

Then there are the small children. The ones who look up to us and need the love that can only come from a parent. The little ones who see things they shouldn't and hear things that break their little hearts. The children are our future. The children

Pray for the children!

 

(c)copyright 2010  danni andrew

 


 

It is not what you can do for yourself that matters most

 

One hand full of rest is better than two fists full of labor and striving after wind. Ecclesiastes 4:6

 

I feel a bit stagnant. I haven't written anything in awhile and it shows. My life consists of kids, parents, softball games, grandkids, friends sometimes and the never ending chores of housekeeping.

I enjoy all of these and my life is full, yet at the same time when I start to feel stressed and the tell-tale pain comes back in the lert side of my face I know that I am piling too much on. Once again it is time to sit back, take a breather and relax a bit.

 

My day of rest has come and gone and I am starting to feel a little bit more like myself. My life is not really very much my own. When you are a parent, a son or daughter and you actually, somewhat have a life, then your life is never realy your own.

 

What if it was? What would happen if I had all the time in the world to spend on ME! I can tell you what would happen. I would be a depressed mess! So I take a few things off the scales and try to bring balance back into my life. A balance of family, busy, friends and most of all, a balance of my time with God. If I do not spend time with God then my life is out of whack and rapidly becoming a mess.

 

So I take a deep breath, say a prayer and go on about my day. Remembering to stop and thank God for the little things. The birds in the trees, the flowers and most of all for my life. It was not that long ago that my life seemed to be over as I knew it. I am thankful that my life has taken a turn for the better. God is responsible for the good things in my life and I thank Him for them.

 

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew

 


 

It's time to stand up for what I believe
Put away my hurts and no longer grieve

The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me, Because the LORD has anointed me To bring good news to the afflicted; He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, To proclaim liberty to captives And freedom to prisoners; Isaiah 61:1 NASB

The time has come to stand up for what I believe. To answer the call that has been placed on my heart. To get off my assumptions and throw tradition in the trash! To get in the trenches and love the hurting. To show them that Jesus is the only answer!

We have been going to meetings at the church that speak of the end times. When I was a little girl we would go to Daniel and Revelation meetings and I would be so scared that I wouold not sleep at night because I was afraid of the end times!

Fear does not make it go away, it only makes me afraid! The Bible speaks of the end times and anyone who has ever read a book or turned on the tv probably knows something about it. So what do we need to do to prepare for the end times? First we need to pray and ask God what HE wants us to do. Then we need to do it.

To react to the end times out of fear only makes you fearful. To spend your time watching for signs and wonders only makes you....somewhat...watchful! What about those who don't know Jesus? It is my responsibility and yours as Christians to get off our assumptions that someone else is going to do it, and get in the trenches and lead people to Jesus! Don't expect them to come to you!

Recently I spoke of a dream and the battlefield in that dream. That battlefield is right in front of our very eyes and it is up to you and I to turn to the person next to you and show them Jesus. It may not be in audible words, but it needs to be in the way we live our lives! You cannot force this down their throats with your Bible knowledge. Pray and ask Jesus to give you the words and show you what needs to be done. Talk to God...then shut up and listen! Then be willing to do whatever it is that He asks you to do!

Are you willing to walk onto that battlefield?

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew

 


 

SHOUT proclaim the name of the Lord
Just make sure it's HIS word

But Joshua commanded the people, saying, "You shall not shout nor let your voice be heard nor let a word proceed out of your mouth, until the day I tell you, 'Shout !' Then you shall shout !" Joshua 6:10
I just received another one of those emails that tells me if I don't forward it, God is going to be upset with me and I am going to have "bad" luck for the rest of my life. I am not ashamed of God nor am I afraid to speak His name. But, it is only in the way and the timing of these moments that I really question the validity of these statements. My life is not going to miraculously change because I sent on an email out of fear.

To speak the name of the Lord in the reverence that He fully deserves is not the context of what these emails are suggesting. Not only are they trying to tell you that if you "DO" something...then God will be happy with you. They are also suggesting that God is going to be mad if I don't forward this email. An email generated by a person somewhere cannot, and does not, make me a godly person. Forwarding it simply fills up my friends inbox with more unwanted junk mail. I would prefer to send things to those waiting inbox's that will uplift them and make them think about who God REALLY is!

When the Lord speaks to me and gives me something to say. I must say it! I must say it to eveyone that the Lord lays on my heart to say it too! Truly hearing God's voice comes from time in the word and time on my knees. If the word or email, comes from me, I am only making noise! Forwarding an email that threatens bad luck is simply noise!

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew
 


 

What is my second guess?
It's not the first, it's less!

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Ephesians 6:12

My life is a bit frayed right now. When I think I know what is best I begin to wonder and those little doubts begin to creep in and I second-guess my thoughts, my dreams and ultimately what God has laid before me to do.

As my mind and my heart unraveled I began to question. I would question the blue of the sky on some days and those are the days that bring me to my knee's. My mind began to wander and my thoughts were a bit scattered. At times like these I know it's best just to pray. To reach out and search in the dark for the hand of Jesus because I've lost it somewhere along the way. In my comings and goings I simply forgot to pray.

The words of my former therapist come back to me, and I am reminded of what she used to tell me. "DJ read your own work"! It's not that I am this fabulous writer, or that I have so much insight that others should look to me for grand direction. No, it is quite the other way around. I make a mess of things when I try to write without seeking God first. My thoughts, words and attentions are muddled and fragmented. It is only when I reach out and say "God, show me what you want to be said", that the words flow and my mind is at ease. It is only then that I can put two words of this English language together and make them make sense.

The word of God flows when I get out of the way and let God be God! I reached for one of my devotional books and began to read on page one. As I turned each page I vaguely remembered each of them and I began to see a pattern form on the pages of this book. This little book of devotionals that only through God's leading and direction was able to flow from my very own keyboard.

In God's eyes my worth is huge. Yet, it is only through God himself that I can dare have two words to put together. Two words that bring me to my knees and shine that focus on Him! It is only through God's grace that I am even alive. Let alone, have anything that is worth saying or better yet, worth listening to!

My eyes have seen the pain of being face down on the floor. And my heart has known the joy of jumping up and down screaming his name. Only the name of Jesus! My life is His. No matter what plans I make, His are always better! I read several pages of that little book and now I am so tired I can hardly keep my eyes open. My focus on Jesus, and only Jesus, now I must sleep. My goal of being published is a very real dream....So long as I let Jesus write the book!

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew
 


 

When God has control of my life
There is much less strife

Establish my footsteps in Your word, And do not let any iniquity have dominion over me. Psalms 119:133

In my prayers to let God have HIS way in my life I have had to look at myself and how I handle things. It is one thing to be "bossy and controlling about things", when those things are the way "I" want them. It is quite another to "let God be boss, and control my life"! When I make the decision, I run the risk of making my life about me and invariably I will add my own thoughts ideas and control issues into the mix. It is quite another to say, "God you are awesome...I know you want what is best for me. Lord whatever you want for me is fine with me!"

I have not perfected the art of getting out of the way and letting God be the boss. But, I know that when I let God have control of my life things just seem to work out so much better for me.

When God asks me to do something and I go about His work, my bossy and control issues become a good thing when I use those traits in my life for HIS work. Maybe a better word for bossy is assertive. Being assertive for God is a good thing. And a better word for controlling might be regulator or dominion (Websters Thesaurus). Websters defines control as the act or activity of looking after and making decisions about something.

When God asks me to do something for Him, he gives me the role to look after something. To do His work as HE directs. So long as I remember that HE is the one in control, then I can be assertive over His dominion (absolute ownership, Websters). God is my boss and He controls my life. I need to be assertive and share what God has done for me with others who need to hear it. God's control in my life is His dominion and I like it that way.

When I am bossy and controlling about things I am most likely working to MY OWN best advantage. When I give God control of my life and let HIM be the boss. I will want to be assertive and share what God has done for me to those who need to hear it. After all God has absolute ownership over my life, or my life is not worth much.

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew

 


 

As I sit here and impatienty wait
for what God will put on my slate

How blessed is the man who has made the LORD his trust, And has not turned to the proud, nor to those who lapse into falsehood. Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders which You have done, And Your thoughts toward us; There is none to compare with You. If I would declare and speak of them, They would be too numerous to count. Psalms 40:4-5

Many times I have written in this space that I am not a very patient person. Many years ago I asked God to teach me patience and I have regretted that prayer many times over. Although I know in my heart of hearts that I NEED to learn patience.

Nine and a half years ago I had a dream. It was a very vivid dream. I saw myself on the ground with my hands tied and a gag in my mouth. I begged Jesus to help me. I prayed and He released the bands from my feet and hands and he took the gag from my mouth. I was so happy that I jumped up and down with joy. I got on my knees and thanked Jesus for releasing me from the bondage that had been my life. In that dream Jesus and I walked along a road. It was a very dark road, I could see the skies and the clouds around us. As Jesus and I walked along that road we met another person who had been walking towards us for a long time. The three of us, the Lord, myself and this other person, were walking along the road together. We came upon a battle field and soon we were on the battlefield, the three of us, ministering to the wounded people there. Working together, yet apart!

That dream has haunted me for years. I have no doubt that my role in ministry is clear. Yet, I do not fully understand all of that dream. So I wait! I wait for God to show me the full meaning, to walk with me on this road and to bring me to the place and the people that He wants in my life.

To embrace God's dream, I must embrace the whole dream. I must say "Lord, whatever it is you want in my life, then YOU make it happen"! I can't spend my time trying to figure it out....I must simply walk the road, meet the people on the road and follow HIS direction. It's not about me or what I want, it's about what God wants. And I want whatever God wants! ALL of what God wants!

And so my lesson in patience continues. I am a fidgety student but I am learning to sit quietly, do what God has set before me and wait for HIS timing to bring the next step into my life. I know that I have a book to write. So I will write. The story unfolds before me and the words fall into place. In His time!

Whatever road you may be on just remember that God knows what is best, even if it doesn't seem so at the time. And, only God can truly see my future and your future! If I continue to look around me, I will miss what is right in front of me!

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew
 


 

When the road is rocky and life is hard
Just turn it over to God without a single word

For You are my rock and my fortress; For Your name's sake You will lead me and guide me. Psalms 31:3

I went to ride horses with my niece today. It has literally been 35+ years since I have been on a horse and I must say that I was a bit nervous. Horses are beautfiul animals and I am not afraid of them. I am afraid of that fall to the ground when I get bucked off, fall or otherwise end up on the ground instead of in the saddle. It's kind of like walking in very high heels for me and probably not a good idea.

It is true that I have a tendency to fall and probably should not try to do things that I might actually hurt myself doing. Somehow, climbing up on that horse was something I really wanted to do. I sat there with the reigns in my hand, trying to tell her what to do and she had no clue what I was doing. "I" had no clue what I was doing!

The ride was rocky, bumpy and extremely scarey as I tried to keep my balance way up there on this magnificent horse. I finally found a place in the saddle that I was semi-comfortable and about that time my niece took the reigns. That made all the difference in the world. The horse calmed down and I calmed down. I was finally able to ride much smoother and enjoy the ride and what was around me.

When life is rocky, bumpy and the ride is scaring you to death. Hand the reigns over to a much more experienced handler. God! He knows what he is doing just like my niece knows a whole lot more about horses than I do. When I let my niece guide the horse we were fine. When I let God guide my life, "I" am fine! He steadies my path and makes the ride a whole lot easier when I am not the one in control.

If your life is rocky right now and the ride is pretty rough, maybe you should hand the reigns back to God. He knows a whole lot more about it than I do!

(c)copyright 2010 danni Andrew
 


 

When I talk to God and the words I say
are hurry up and quickly I pray
Too quickly I lay out my list
What is it that I have missed?

Your ears will hear a word behind you, "This is the way, walk in it," whenever you turn to the right or to the left. Isaiah 30:21

So much emphasis is placed on talking to God that many times we forget that "LISTENING" to God is just as important! I can get on my knee's, lay out my list of wants and beg God to listen to me, yet when I am done, if I get up and go about my business without really listening to what GOD has to say. Then what does it matter?

How am I supposed to "hear" God? Our Christian faith is based simply on that, Faith! We are based on something we do not audibly hear as a regular basis. But, God speaks to us in many ways. Whether it be by a scripture in the Bible, a word said to us by a friend or something the pastor says in his sermon at church. God still speaks to us and it is up to me to sit back, shut up, and listen!

If I really allow myself to clear my mind of MY thoughts, plans, ideas etc. I can honestly hear that still small voice. That voice that is drowned out by the tv, the computer or the telephone. When I am so busy that I can't hear myself think. How then can I possibly hear what God has to say? And what God has to say is far more important than anything that might come over the tv, computer or telephone!

So, in my daily walk as I take the time to ask God what He really thinks, I need to sit down, shut up and LISTEN to what God has to say. It is only then that I will hear and understand what God's will is in my life. When God says to turn to the left, I must turn to the left. When God says go right! I go right! It can be that clear if we just shut up and listen to what God has to say!

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew

 


 

Don't forget to pray
It's the only way
To get the answer I need
His way is best indeed

He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm. Psalms 40:2

I like to hear stories of what God has done in the lives of His people. I respect those people who were born in the church and gave their hearts to the Lord at an early age. And I respect those people who never fell into some of the worldly traps that I have. Simply because maybe they had more will-power than I. But, at the same time, I wonder if they are only saying that because I know for myself that if I did not have troubles. If my life was one of calm......I probably wouldn't appreciate what God has done for me near as much as I do now.

My life has been one of hard choices. Yes, I am a student of the school of hard knocks! I am hard headed and I am a decision maker. I know what I want and how to go about getting it. One of the hardest lesson's I have had to learn is to step back and let God have HIS way! 'Not my will but your's Lord' were words that were very foreign to me. In the end though, these words are the words that make all the difference in the world. To step back, pray and ask God for his guidance means that it's all going to work out just fine.

I got the email yesterday telling me I didn't get the job I wanted. This could be cause for concern and depression in my former life. But, I am not! I know that God has a reason for me not getting that job. After all, I have my parents to take care of, a book to write and canvas that needs paint. It would have taken time away from my kids and my grandkids as well and I don't want that. And, I still have a play to do costumes for in November and all the prep for that play begins now!

God knows best even if it doesn't seem so at the time. Whatever it is you are struggling with, whatever it is you think you want to do. There is time to step back, pray about it, and ask God to show you the best way. Nothing in this life is set in stone to the point that you don't have time to pray about it. Sometimes those prayers are in a split second and sometimes we have time to really stop, pray and let God work. God answers split second prayers too.

Whether its a train speeding at you or a slow country road you are traveling on, God can answer those prayers at the speed they need to be answered. Don't forget to pray!

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew

 


 

I am a Martha ...
and I need to be a Mary

But Martha was distracted with all her preparations; and she came up {to Him} and said, "Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to do all the serving alone? Then tell her to help me." But the Lord answered and said to her, "Martha, Martha, you are worried and bothered about so many things; Luke 10:40-41

Now that Passion Play is over and I have a bit more time on my hands I have a whole list of things I want to do. My house is a wreck and it's going to make me crazy until I get it in order again. I want to get some writing done and I want t get my brushes out and paint!

But, I can't! I guess I am going to be forced to slow down a bit and quit rushing around so much. I think I get busy, get ahead of myself and my feet go out from under me. Literally! Yup, I fell again. It makes me so upset when I fall but it forces me to back up, slow down and focus on what is most important. It's not my to-do list or things I need to do or places I need to go. It's sitting here quietly, spending time with God and really reflecting on Him.

I can get so caught up in what I need to do.....that I forget what I need to do! I have taken this afternoon and simply stayed quiet. Praying some, sleeping allot and reflecting on the week that has just passed. It is not about how good the costumes looked or how many lines were remembered on cue. It's about how many people were touched by Jesus and gave thier hearts to HIM!

I am a Martha, God made me the way I am. Bossy, controlling, and completely anal about housework, details and making sure things get done in a timely manner. But, part of me is also a Mary. Trying to remember that sitting at the feet of Jesus needs to be done, even if I haven't fallen and sprained my knee in the process.

Reminding myself that Martha and Mary both have their place in this world, and it's all about finding that balance between them!

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew
 


 

God will answer your prayers, beyond your wildest dreams, and in a way you never thought possible!

Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalms 37:4

As a writer I tend to exercise my wild imagination pretty frequently. I could write novels, I just choose to write non-fiction. My idea of the best thing God could possibly do for me is kind of like shopping at a dollar store when God has far bigger plans.

I look around my small world and imagine what could be if God just saw things my way. God looks around His great big world and see's things the way they really are! God's way of seeing things is on a far grander scale than anything I could imagine. It's kind of like shopping for a car and buying a Yugo when God would have given you a Camaro if you just let Him do the looking for you.

When you look at life through God's glasses the possibilities are infinite. What He wants for you is so much better than anything you could possibly come up with on your own, that to actually look around and try to make a decision is simply .... crazy! Without letting God have His input that is. Any decision made without God is a decision that should not be made. When I seek His face and really try to listen to what God has to say, I mean really listen! That is when things work out and my life run's so much smoother.

Your life can be small and insignificant or it can be beyond your wildest dreams, and in a way you never thought possible! What God has planned for you is simply amazing. Don't settle! See what God has planned for you and it will blow your mind!

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew

 


 

Talk to God...He's up all night anyway!

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6

Worrying only makes YOU tired! All you can do is what you can absolutely do at one time and if you have more to do than yo can get done....Well, maybe yu need to let something go.

There is a huge difference in what "I" want and what God wants. I want what I think is best for me and God wants what HE knows is best for me. My life is made up of little details that at the time seem really important to me. I have to ask myself this question. "In a year, is it really going to matter"? How about in six months or even a month. Is it really going to matter? Chances are it won't matter. The things that are really important, the one's I need to worry about the most are the ones that really mean something. Details are just details and dust is dust!

Sometimes you just gotta let a little bit of dust build up. I am not saying that you should shirk your duties and let your house get to be such a mess. There are times that having lunch with a friend is more important than making sure your house is perfect. The old saying goes like this, "cleanliness is next to Godliness". In reality, Godliness has little or nothing to do with being clean. It has a whole lot more to do with doing what God has laid out for me, dropping what I am doing when a friend is in need and putting God first!

Godliness is next to Godliness! Not that we will ever be like God, we won't. Not on this earth anyway, but giving of myself is far better than trying to do things my own way and forgetting what is really important.

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew

 


 

They speak and no one understands

No words can describe God's hands

For God so loved the world that HE gave HIS only son that WHOMEVER believes in Him will not parish but have everlasting life. My paraphrase of John 3:16

My role as Costumer for Passion Play Ministries Inc. Four Corners group, has given me many opportunities. It has led me to become part of another play that is very dear to my heart as well. With the Navajo Nation now in it's second year with their own play and now the Spanish group well underway, I have met many people who were acquaintances and have now become close friends.

Today I went to help the lady who does the costumes for the Spanish group in our area. As I walked into the building, expecting to help out the costume lady, take a few measurements and stand around .... unable to communicate as many of the people here speak in limited or broken English and I speak in very limited Spanish! As I stood in that room watchig them practice I became aware that I knew exactly where they were in their practice. Unable to understand much of the Spanish that flew around me I still knew exactly where they were in the play. Even though I could not understand the words. I knwe what was being said.

I stood there, mesmerized, watching the story unfold in front of me. Watching Peter pace as he ranted that Jesus was gone for good and was not coming back. As I watched the emotion on this man's face I knew what he was saying. I felt his frustration, anger and pain as he demanded that the other disciples join him in his rant.

As they concluded the scene and the music filled my ears. Once again the words were in a language I am not fluent in. Yet at the same time the beauty filled my soul and brought tears to my eyes. I know the song! I knew the song just as welll as I would if I were fluent in Spanish.

After practice ended and I had taken the measurements for costumes that I had come to take, answered the questions posted before me and smiled in broken English at many of the nicest people you would ever want to meet. We bowed our heads to pray. As the Pastor prayed in Spanish, the Holy Spirit met me in a language I know. My heart recognized the language of the Holy Spirit in this room. Among these people who, in many ways, could not communicate with me. The barriers were broken and Spanish and English no longer existed. We were a group of people, in a room, praising one God! In a language that we all understood.

As I walked away from that building, I knew that this group was no different from the group that had made up this play for thirteen years in my area. The message of Jesus death on the cross, and his resurrection was not one with barriers of language. For the message has no barriers. It is for every man, woman and child out there!

I praised God tonight in a language different from my own, and with many friends who are just like me! I went to help them with costumes. Instead, they helped me break down another barrier. To stand together, one people, praising one God. There are no barriers. He died for ALL of us!

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When God doesn't make sense
I need to get off the fence

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11

Just when I think I have God figured out He changes things on me. I think I know what he is going to do... And boom, he does something else? I sit here and shake my head and wonder what is God up to today? I really don't kow!

But, I do know one thing. God stays steady even when I can't make up my mind. I think I want one thing, then something happens and I think, "well maybe I really didn't want that after all"! In reality, God didn't change his mind, I changed mine.

When I focus on what God has planned for me and quit trying to put my two cents worth in, is when things really begin to work out. God knows all along what he wants to do and it really has very little to do with my thoughts. It's not that God doesn't care what I think. He does. But he has such a better plan than mine that I really can't try to even make plans because if I really listen to God and focus on His best for my life, then my plans are not the point anyway.

Go with the flow. God's flow! Only God knows what is best and I am his servant anyway. And that is really where I want to be!

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew

 


 

It is as though it were tossed to the wind...
Never to show it's ugly face again

Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much. James 5:16

Have you ever regretted something you have done? Have you ever wished you could take back a word you said or a love lost? Sometimes you can and sometimes you just can't! But, any time, you can ask God to forgive you. He is right there, ready and willing to forgive you.

I have one such friend. It was someone I loved very much and I hurt that friend, I know I did. That was close to thirty years ago. I don't know where this person is and my contact with him has been broken. I can't call him up and say, "Hey, I am so sorry, please forgive me"! And even if I could my friend may not want to forgive me. And that decision is between he and God. But, I can get on my knee's and put my own regrets before God. I can ask forgiveness. This is not something to be taken lightly. God knows my heart, He knows that if I could do it over again I would. I would do things different.

True forgiveness comes from your own heart. If you are truly sorry for something you have done, go ask God to forgive you. Place that hurt at the foot of the cross and let it go. That doesn't mean it's like it never happened. It means you have been forgiven.

We learn from our mistakes and try our best not to make them again. So to my friend, somewhere out there on the roads of life. I am truly sorry I hurt you. I pray that God heals your heart and if you are still angry at me, well, that's ok. I really don't blame you. I know God has forgiven me. And if it's any consulation. I learned from it!

(c)copyright 2010 danni

 


 

When I get stressed and things run together I just need to remember His promises.

O afflicted one, storm tossed, and not comforted. Behold, I will set your stones in antimony, And your foundations I will lay in saphires. Moreover I will make your battlements of rubies, And your gates of Crystal, And your entire wall of precious stones. And all your sons will be taught of the Lord, And the well-being of your sons will be great. Isaiah 54:11-13

Sometimes I forget what God has promised me. He has promised to answer my prayers beyond my wildest dreams and in a way I never thought possible. That reminds me that God has not forgotten me even though I have a tendency to try to get ahead of things. You would think I would learn that lesson soon! But yah, I may have done it again!

I am on such an overload right now that things have a tendency to get ahead of me, forgotten or out of context. No matter how much I try to manage things I have to keep reminding myself that God has a far better plan. That plan is better because it is God's plan. That is all it needs to be a better plan. My plans don't mean much until I let God be God!

So I take a deep breath, inhale...exhale! Step back, look around and slowly start moving forward again. When God says to turn to the right I turn to the right, when God says to turn to the left I turn to the left. When God says to back up and slow down. I need to back up and slow down. God's plan is the best. No matter how good I think my plans are, unless I let God lead they are nothing!

Pray! Inhale. Exhale. Put one foot in front of the other and what God has promised will come to pass!

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When I finally stop struggling and let God be God!

It will come to pass that before they call, I will answer, and while they are speaking, I will hear. Isaiah 65:24

One of the things that drives me crazy the most is trying to figure out what God is going to do next. Now, I know that is not possible and my sane mind, understands that. Yet, a part of me still tries to figure out what God's next move is going to be. Kind of like trying to play chess with the grand master when I barely remember the moves.

I can see God sitting up there on the thrown smiling ruefully and shaking his head as he watches me try to analyze a situation and try to second-guess what He is doing. He is shaking his head and thinking to himself. "Danni, when you quit struggling, I am going to show you"!

God knows I am anal and He also knows I am a planner and a fixer. He made me that way! But, that doesn't mean I have a few lessons I need to learn on being GOD's planner, fixer and anal person! And letting God ultimately be in control!

I like order in my life. I like to try to keep things where I know where everything is and I know what is best. But, sometimes I just don't know and I have to let God handle things. I have to stop grabbing it all back and trying to fix it on my own. Until that day comes when God, in all of His sovereign glory, chooses to let me in on the secret I am just going to have to sit down, shut up, work on my patience....still! And just let God be God and manage and control what He has already given me to control.

I may not like it, but it is what is best for me.

(c)copyright 2010 danni andrew

 


 

Sometimes you gotta stand for something
or you will fall for anything!

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, And before you were born I consecrated you; I have appointed you a prophet to the nations." Jeremiah 1:5

I have spent alot of my life trying to find who I really am. What I wanted to be when I grow up and who I think of the person I see in the mirror every morning. Trying to find balance in a world that is out of balance and trying to be who I want to be when sometimes I didn't even know who that was!

I have learned that respect is very important. Whether you respect yourself, or you respect other people. Disrespect is something that you really can't get back if you allow it in your own life. Or shall I say in my life. When I write these devotionals, I am usually writing a note to myself about something I am dealing with. Today I am dealing with respect. If I stand here and let someone walk all over me I might as well just give up! My life is nothing if I don't respect myself. That doesn't mean that I walk over other people to ge MY way. It means that respect goes both directions and if you don't stand for something. You are more likely to fall for something.

I think God wants me to stand on my own two feet. I think he wants me to be all I can be, and to be that person in the right way. Letting someone get the better of me is not good for me and frankly it is not good for the other person either. It gives them a false sense of stability and gives ME a real sense of instability!

God created me and he doesn't make junk. It doesn't matter if I was an unplanned child or if I was poor growing up and the kids at school picked on me. That is all history and part of what has made me who I am. And I like who I am! So, if I continue to allow these things to get to me, then I am just letting more disrespect come into my life. So, I am going to stand up and say, "Life you are not going to treat me like this anymore, I'm not going to take it"! I am who I am and I aint nobody else.

You are who you are. You aint nobody else, so be the best YOU you can be!

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