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It's the choices that we make
The decisions that we take
But, it's my choice you see
Who are the ones to cry for me

Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained {for me,} When as yet there was not one of them. Psalms 139:16

A couple of days ago I asked you to pray for a friend of mine. She attempted suicide and is now in a hospital. She is awake and physically seems to be fine. But, she does not understand what the fuss is about. After all, it's her life and she can take it if she wants to.

Well, I suppose she can! But, it's not that simple. Life is full of choices. What do we eat for dinner, how fast do I drive on the highway coming home, and what do I do with my life. Every choice has a consequence. Those consequences are often felt by others, not by the one who chose the action.

I was suicidal once. I no longer saw the point of living in this terrible world. I wanted it to end. I shared this with my sister in law, who shared it with others. I was not happy about that one, but what happened as a result would change my life. My nephew heard that I wanted to end my life. He sent me an email and he told me that I meant allot to him, that he loved me and he would really miss me if I was gone.

You might say to yourself, "that was really kind of him to do that", and not think much of it. But there is some things you must know about my nephew that make that statement profound. At that time he was about 12 years old. My nephew covers his feelings better than most adults. He acts like he's the tough guy and he doesn't care. If you saw him today, you would understand.

But, deep in that tough guy attitude lies the heart of a very compassionate young man. What he said hit me so hard I sat there and sobbed for a long time. He begged me not to do it. And, at that moment I promised him that I would never do this again. I would not even contemplate it. And, to this day I haven't!

Someone does not wake up one morning and say "my life is miserable, I'm gonna commit suicide". No, this is something that has been going through their minds for awhile now. I can say to my friend, all of the reasons in the world why she should not do this. But, she knows all of those. No, all I can say to her is how much I love her, and how much I would miss her if she were gone. There would be a rainbow missing in a certain part of this world if my friend were to succeed in her suicide bid. She is a beautiful, bubbly girl, very funny, very sweet. She lights up the room when she walks into it.

Once again, I beg of you. Please pray for my friend. Pray that she will see how much her friends and family love her, and I pray that she will see that God loves her too. Just as much as he loves YOU!

Danni


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Oh what a mess my life would be
If it were not for what Jesus did for me
All go unto one place; all are of the dust, and all turn to dust again Ecclesiastes 3:20

I cleaned my room today. Now, it really isn't as bad as it sounds. But, it took me all day. Allot of what is in this room is not mine. The last three occupants of this room were males. Two of which were teenage boys. On every surface, under the bed, and in the closets and drawers is stuff. All kinds of stuff. CD covers, pens and pencils, all kinds of school stuff, dirty underwear, shoes, hats and a rock. Yes, there was a rock about the size of a softball in my room.

The room is now in order. I can sleep here, work here, sew here and I can watch TV and listen to my stereo to my little hearts content. I am much more comfortable here.

What makes people decide what is important? What will they take with them? And, what will they leave behind? It really doesn't matter, because in the end it is all worthless anyway. I brought nothing into this world, and I will take nothing out. Even if my family put my favorite earrings on me when they buried me, it wouldn't matter. They would rust and fade away too.

Things don't really matter, they simply fade away. I threw out several big bags of trash today, all things that didn't matter anymore. No one cared!

So what is it that really matters? If it's not things then it must be people. Or how about what Jesus did for us on the cross. Now that really matters. And, that is something you can take with you!

Danni
(c)2004


What are the things that I say and do
Do I want him to see it to?

From the first day of the seventh month began they to offer burnt offerings unto the LORD. But the foundation of the temple of the LORD was not [yet] laid. Ezra 3:6

Last night, I got up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night. We live on a farm and you can't be too sure what critter is going to decide to come inside for the night. They usually stay on the floor, so I don't worry too much, I simply leave a light on. Not for them, but for ME!

I didn't bother to put my glasses on, but I can see pretty good even so. As I came out of my bedroom, I could see something black on the floor that had not been there when I went to bed. I grabbed my glasses, put them on, and tiptoed down the hall, stepping gingerly past the two black "things" in the hallway. I flipped on the bathroom light, since they were right in the doorway, and I peered gingerly at the floor.

UGh, dead mice! About that time Mom's cat came around the corner, meowing. She went on meowing for a couple of minutes, insistently telling me all about what she had done for me. In fact, she had left proof on the floor in the hallway of what a good kitty she was. Now, she is a good kitty, I have not doubt about that, but I really could do without the show and tell. She usually leaves these "presents" for my Mom, but somehow, she left them for me. Mom has a bathroom in her room, so she doesn't come out here in the middle of the night, only I do, and kitty left them right in front of the bathroom door. I told kitty kitty, she was a good kitty for catching the mice. But, I'd really rather do without the show and tell.

This makes me wonder how thrilled God is with our feats. Last I heard we didn't have to do offerings anymore, but I guess no one told kitty that.

I'm sorry if this is a bit gross and not very tasteful, but I really got to thinking about it. Kitty really wanted me to see what she did, she was proud of herself. I wonder, do I care if God see's what I do? Do I take it to him and show it to him? Do I ask Him if he is proud of what I did, did I say "God did I do ok"? Hmm, maybe I should?

Danni
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What is it that you ask
It seems to be a small task
You ask for a small thing still
To give the best, is God's will

And he said unto her, Give me, I pray thee, a little water to drink; for I am thirsty. And she opened a bottle of milk, and gave him drink, and covered him. Judges 4:19

The words, "Milk Miracles" keeps going through my mind. I hate it when I do this, because the phrase won't go away until I sit down and figure out what it means. I looked up the words, milk and miracles in the Bible to see what I might find.

The Bible speaks many times of the land "flowing with milk and honey". Milk is white, and therefore pure. Milk can sustain life, as it does a small child. Milk always seems to be referred to the same time as honey. There is a story in the Bible that talks about a woman, who, when asked for water, instead gave the travleer milk. Milk is the best of the house. When you have guests you give them the good stuff. Water is good, and milk is much better.

So, "Milk Miracles", means the good stuff, the good miracles. God wants to give you Milk Miracles! He wants to give you the very best of himself for you.

Danni
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God has a plan and you are in it!!

"O afflicted one, storm-tossed, {and} not comforted, Behold, I will set your stones in antimony, And your foundations I will lay in sapphires. "Moreover, I will make your battlements of rubies, And your gates of crystal, And your entire wall of precious stones. Isaiah 54:11-12

As I as cruising the web just now, I saw an advertisement that read "How to Find the Best Time Shares"! And, there was a picture of a nice, serene blue ocean with that advertisement. I had to shake my head as I wondered if those good prices on time shares had anything to do with Ivan the Terrible Hurrican.

Isn't it interesting that the "BEST" places to go, can be the worst places to go in a matter of minutes. That reminds me of "life in general". Everything can be wonderful and perfect, like the serene pictures of calm, blue oceans and clear blue skies. But, then, something happens, a job loss, someone gets hurt or even killed and your whole life turns upside down. You lose everything! Then, things just don't seem to be worth it anymore. Life is rough and we blame God first. "If anyone fiercely assails {you} it will not be from Me. Whoever assails you will fall because of you. "Behold, I Myself have created the smith who blows the fire of coals And brings out a weapon for its work; And I have created the destroyer to ruin. "No weapon that is formed against you will prosper; And every tongue that accuses you in judgment you will condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, And their vindication is from Me," declares the LORD. Isaiah 54:15-17

When God is in charge, skies may not always be clear blue perfect, BUT, they are exactly where they should be. God has a plan and you are in it!! You may think God has gone off and forgotten you, but he hasn't. You are still, right there in his hands.

Danni
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It's in a safe place, and it always will be
Just what is in my heart for me

Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer. Psalms 19:14

I got a letter today. It was a certified letter, and it was from the local hospital. The letter told me that they had something that belonged to me. They had something valuable in their safe, they had found it, and they thought I might want it.

I racked my brain trying to figure out what it was that I could have forgotten at the hospital? I had no idea. I went down to the hospital, and I gave them the letter. The letter that would redeem my personal items that were so important.

The lady brought back an envelope, and in that envelope was a card. It was my bank card. My ATM card, and on the front of that card was the numbers, and the name of the bank. I could see my signature on the back of that card. It was definitely mine. I looked at the expiration date, and it read 12/96.

That card had lain in the hospitals safe for six years. The worse part about it was, that I didn't even miss it! I never even remembered that it was gone. I thought to myself that there must be some meaning to this discovery.

All this time the hospital thought that this card was really something important. And, it really wasn't. What is in my life that I am holding onto, that I think is really important, when in reality it is not important. If it sat in the safe for six years and I didin't miss it, I obviously don't need it. What is sitting in your heart that you think is important, but in reality, it is not important. Is it anger? Is it hatred? What has been sitting in your heart for so long that you don't even remember why you left it there? Only God knows. Asking him to bring it to your attention, so you can get rid of it. Read his letter the Bible and it will tell you what you are missing.

Danni
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If every day were sunshine, life would be a desert!

"I am poured out like water, And all my bones are out of joint; My heart is like wax; It is melted within me. My strength is dried up like a potsherd, And my tongue cleaves to my jaws; And thou dost lay me in the dust of death." Psalms 22:14-15

I have been tired before, but I don't think I've ever been as bad off as David talks about in todays scripture. I am tired tonight as I write this, and I question if I should even be trying to make more than two words make sense. I am that tired!

But, for some reason, I really felt like I should not let myself get into bed without at least attempting to write something that is suitable for my readers.

The thing that keeps going through my mind is this. "No matter how hard life gets to be! No matter how certain I am that God has left me and is not coming back! No matter how tired I get! God is still there. He has not forsaken me."

My friend sent me a story today that told about how pottery is made, and how hot the ovens get, and how much the paint stinks, then the potter puts the cup back into the ovens and it just seems unbearable. This is how King David must have felt when he wrote our scripture for today. So overwhelmed, that life was simply unbearable. Well, I know that feeling!

Jeremiah 18:4 says "But the vessel that he was making of clay was spoiled in the hand of the potter; so he remade it into another vessel, as it pleased the potter to make".

No matter how far away you think God has moved from you, he really has not. He is right there. And, if you think you've been in the furnace of affliction before, don't worry, it will probably get worse. I don't believe that God would put you through the training, if he did not plan on using you. I feel honored that God wants to use me!

Well, I hope all of this made sense, because I am still tired. But, I am going to bed now. Have a nice day!

Danni
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"For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God' not of works, lest any man should boast". Ephesians 2:8-9

I am having problems figuring out my insurance for my car. I don't like the rates I am paying, but I guess it can be expected when you drive a new car, versus an old one. The rates just keep getting higher! It doesn't matter what I do with the numbers they still add up to way too much!

I am so thankful that Jesus paid the debt on the cross for you and I. Jesus paid the premiums when he died on the cross. There are no increases, no deductibles, and no exclusions. Plain and simple, it can be written in one word. Salvation!!! And, it's free, all you have to do is ask for it!

Amen to that! Thank you Jesus!

Danni
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"O afflicted one, storm tossed, and not comforted, Behold, I will set your stones in antimony, And your foundations I will lay in saphires. "Moreover, I will make your battlements of rubies, And your gates of crystal, And your entire wall of precious stones. Isaiah 54:11-12

But now, O LORD, You are our Father, We are the clay, and You our potter, And all of us are the work of Your hand. Isaiah 64:8

I made a vow to continue to write. Yet, I have not written even a postcard in quite awhile. My hands shake as they are poised above the keyboard. My stomach churns as butterflies flit about within it. Can I really do this? Do I really have what it takes anymore? The evil one wants me silent. He has thrown so many things in my path in the last six months. Problems that are designed to keep my words silent. Problems designed to stop my fingers above the keyboard, to silence the words forever if he can make it. Well, ladies and Gentleman, he has not won! "If anyone fiercely assails you it will not be from Me. Whoever assails you will fall because of you". Isaiah 54:15

In the end, God always wins! The evil one knows that. But, he is still going to try to take down as many of us with him that he can. I am not going to let him do it!! Life deals out some pretty rough stuff these days. You don't have to be strong. God can be strong for you. He is the one who has the last word, and that word is good!

Danni
(c)copyright 2005


You don't miss it until you don't have it anymore
You don't really realize what is in store
Until the day the light is removed from you
You look around and realize, it matters too

For God, who said, "Light shall shine out of darkness," is the One who has shone in our hearts to give the Light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ. 2Corinthians 4:6

As many of you know, I have moved about three times in the last year. Because of a problem with getting my mail delivered to my house here, I did not get my electric bills. And, that meant, I didn't get the shut off notice either. When I got home this morning after running some errands, I found that my electricity had been shut off.

As you can imagine, I was pretty upset. I called the electric company and that was not much help. They never are. Long story short, I finally got through to them and was able to get my electricity restored. (After I paid the bill)!!!!

I never really thought about electricity much before. It is something I take for granted. But, when I tried to get some things done around my house, I found that I couldn't. I couldn't sew! I couldn't do computer work! And, for the most part, I couldn't cook, and I was hungry too!!! So, I laid down to take a nap, and you guessed it, I couldn't sleep either.

You don't realize how much you miss the Lord, until He isn't there. God is always there for you, but when you get into things that you shouldn't He isn't going to join you. He is still watching you, loving you, and caring about you. But the light seems to be gone from life. At least it is from mine anyway.

That is when I need to plug back into the major power source, get my light turned back on. He is right there and waiting, all you have to do is ask. He has not moved! When I went to the electric company, they had not moved either, and in no time, my lights came back on. God is even quicker than that! Seek Him out!

Danni
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A new dress can make me feel better
Or maybe even a soft new wool sweater
But the thing that makes me feel best of all
Is when I hear His voice, it is I that he does call

Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform [it] until the day of Jesus Christ: Phillipians 1:6

I am very happy with myself today. I got the brace off of my wrist and was given the go ahead to go back to work, at my regular job. In fact, today, I also went to the dentist to get started on fixing my teeth. I have several cavities, a result of too many years living on Cola and cigarettes. I quit both of them some time ago, so it is now safe to fix the teeth.

When I was in the doctors office my doc told me that I needed a complete physical and a couple of other things, because it is past time to do so.

Wow, here I am fixing my teeth, getting a clean bill of health in all other areas, and since I can go back to work on a regular basis, doing what I enjoy doing! I feel like I have my life back. I have lost nearly 20 pounds in the last four months as well. I feel like I am getting a makeover. You know, have you have seen those shows where they take this homely person and transfer them into a beauty queen or king with a new hairstyle, a new outfit and some makeup? Well, this is a bit different, but I do feel like I am getting a makeover.

God does makeovers all of the time. But, these makeovers are from the inside out. God doesn't care about the outward appearance, He looks at the heart. But the LORD said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for [the LORD seeth] not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the LORD looketh on the heart. 1Samuel 16:7

The Prophet Samuel was talking about King David in this particular passage. God told David he would be king, then he set about giving David a makeover to make him the king after his own heart. At times David must have thought that he would not live long enough to be king.

I know how David felt. There are times when I have felt like the transformation process that God is putting me through is simply going to kill me. And, I cannot take it any longer. I feel like I just want to quit because it is too hard to go on with life's troubles. King David hid in the mountains because King Saul wanted to kill him. But, he could not be the King that God had called him to be hiding in a cave somewhere, he had to come out and let God do his work on him.

I need to come out of my hiding place to let God make me into who he wants me to be. Do you?

Danni
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My Mouth runneth over, so the saying goes
I try my best not to step on someones toes

Professing to be wise, they became fools. Romans 1:22

I made a vow not long after I started writing these devotionals. I vowed that I would not use this forum to preach to anyone, especially by singling out one person in particular. I don't want to use what I write to judge or rebuke one of my readers. Just because someone is doing something I disagree with, does not mean I can get up on my soapbox and tell them what I think under the umbrella of "ministry"! The Holy Spirit is equipped to do that, I am not!

I must be honest with you though, sometimes I am tempted! A friend of mine says "don't become so heavenly bound, that you become earthly useless"! Or something like that! I want to be heavenly bound, and earthly usefull!

It never fails that when I step up on my soapbox, I step on someones toes. I am an impatient person. I want things to be done right now. I don't like waiting in line anywhere! And, I want things done my way, and that's the only way.

Several years ago, I prayed and asked God to teach me patience. I must say that I have regretted that prayer many times over the last ten or so years. Learning to be patient is one of the very hardest things I have ever done.

Three years ago God told me to make my wedding dress. Some of you might remember those days. Since that day I have looked for the man that God has intended for me. About six months ago I quit looking! I told God that I didn't care anymore. I told God that I was tired of waiting, and he must have forgotten what he told me. That dress is hanging in a friend of mines closet. She has been babysitting it for me since I didn't have my own house for four months. I have my own house again, and the dress needs to come home. I need to look at it again. I need to remember!

"And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28" God is not a liar!! God has not given up on you or me, so please don't give up on him. I don't know how long God intends for this to go on. I don't know what I need to learn here. But, I do know this. God loves me, and he has not forgotten me. He see's the universe, I only see sand!

Danni
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What would I do, and what would I say?
If it were you I had found on my way!

And Jesus answering said, A certain [man] went down from Jerusalem to Jericho, and fell among thieves, which stripped him of his raiment, and wounded [him], and departed, leaving [him] half dead. Luke 10:30

Our town has what we call "the inebriate popuation", which is a really nice sounding title for a bunch of drunks. Frequently you find them laying on the sidewalk or on the grass somewhere. We simply call the police and keep going. Or, simply keep going.

During the winter months though, it is a bit of a different story. It gets really cold out there, and all too often they are found dead. Freezing to death, on the ground, simply because they are drunk.

The man in the story was beaten up by thieves. He was bruised and bleeding and the good Samaritan came along and helped him. He did the right thing. He had a caring heart.

So, what am I supposed to do when I see a drunk laying on the sidewalk? It is not a good idea for a woman alone to stop and try to help some drunk guy, even in the middle of the day. So, what should I do? Should I stop and put myself and maybe even my children in danger?

When I had my cell phone, I would simply call the police. Maybe I could sit at a distance and make sure nothing else happens to this person until police and medical help arrives. Maybe I can pray for them? Maybe I can go down to the shelter and help cook lunch for them too. Maybe I can make blankets to give out to them too.

What would you do? What would you say if you were faced with this problem in your own town? What would you do if that were your son, your brother or sister or a parent laying there on the sidewalk? That is between you and God. To do something or not to do something. That is the question.

Danni
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Without rain, life would be a desert! Too much rain and the desert is washed away.

then hear in heaven and forgive the sin of Your servants and of Your people Israel, indeed, teach them the good way in which they should walk. And send rain on Your land, which You have given Your people for an inheritance. 1Kings 8:36

PFR is one of my favorite singing groups. The initials PFR mean, Pray for Rain! It was not that long ago that the news was talking about the drought conditions and how they might have to do something serious in the reservoirs because they were drying up. They were afraid they were not going to have the water we needed down river. So I prayed for rain!

My life has been quiet. Nothing much seemed to be happening. I wondered where the promise had gone, you know, the one about the abundant ministry. What has happened to God's church? So I prayed for rain!

If you watch the news you know that there are downpours and floods all over the world. From the Tsunami to raging torrents in Washington County, Utah. You don't know where that is? Well, I do, my sister and her family live near there. I pray for them!

As the old saying goes, "when it rains it pours"! I would say that the drought is over here in the Southwest. The rain has come and soaked the ground. So much so that the ground is now falling into gullies, and washing away homes. But, on the other hand, this brings about growth. You must have soil and water for the seed to grow.

It is the same with the ministry. Without rain, life would be a desert! Too much rain and the desert is washed away. Now I pray for the rain to stop. Too much of a good thing is bad. I pray for rain, yet when the rain washes my house away, I pray for it to stop! I pray for those people who have lost their lives, their homes and their families to rain or large amounts of water.

Water washes clean. Water gives life. Water destroys. Yet, I still pray for rain.

Danni
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Watch what you do
Watch what you say
Because you never know
If the end is today

Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves. Matthew 7:15

In my continuing efforts to find a publisher for my book, I have searched for publishers and Literary agents from one end of the USA to the other. This is where I found Janet Kay! I spoke to Janet on the phone and she was very nice. She seemed genuinely interested in my project. She claimed to be a Christian, and knew all the right words. She urged me to send her my manuscript right away, as she was sure she could find a publisher. In fact, her husband WAS a publisher!

How convenient! But, it seemed like one thing after another kept me from sending that manuscript off to Miss Janet Kay! Finally a few of months later, I got the manuscript sent off to Texas. Days later it came back rejected by the post office, saying the office was closed with no forwarding address. I was disappointed.

Now that I am pretty much settled in my new apartment, I decided to look and see if the offices of Janet Kay Literary Agent were open again. I searched the internet and found a news article. "Janet Kay served with warrant, and the offices were abandoned"!! I was shocked! As I read the article, it spoke of how they received manuscripts with great promises of publishing it. They took fee's and did nothing with the manuscripts. The authorities found piles and piles of manuscripts , enough to fill a jail cell. None of them acknowledged, and none of them published. In fact, the publishers had never heard of Janet Kay!

How many aspiring writers have been damaged by this? How many have lost time because of these greedy individuals? How many were sucked in by empty promises?

How many times are you and I sucked in by empty promises? How many times do we see something that looks too good to be true, but it's not and we find out too late? That is how satan does things. He paints this very pretty picture. It looks so good, that we just can't seem to resist. Beware of wolves in sheeps clothing!

I believe God protected me when I came into contact with this woman and her organization. My manuscript never crossed her desk!! God loves you, He has plans for you, and he does not want you to be hurt. Sometimes bad things happen, and God uses that for good too. No matter what happens, God is in control! Never forget that.

Danni
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His plan is always the best
So, forget about the rest!
He will put you on dry land
Just reach out for his hand

And Peter answered him and said, Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee on the water. And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus. But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me. And immediately Jesus stretched forth [his] hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt? Matthew 14:28-31

I have been really stressed lately. For the first time in a very long time, I am totally responsible for all of my bills. I do not have HUD to pay my rent, nor do I have any help paying for food or electricity. I guess you can say I've gone through this "what if?" and, "gee I wish I had".......NOT done whatever it was that might have contributed to this situation. I know what all happened that contributed to my current problems, so I won't boar you with all the details.

This morning I went to wash a load of clothes. There is a Christian bookstore next to this particular laundry mat, and so I went over to look around while I was waiting. As I looked at things I was praying, well actually, I think I was probably whining! But, God said to me "I allowed all of this to happen to you"!! Then I said to myself, "for a reason"??!!

Peter only began to sink when he took his eyes off the Lord. When I whine I take my eyes off the Lord! I cannot be looking at HIM, when I am focused on ME! If the Lord allowed this to happen, it must be for a reason.

Peter asked Jesus to let him walk on water. He reached out his hand and stepped out of the boat. Focused entirely on the Lord. Yet, he became scared when things started to get rough. How many times have I done that?

If the Lord allowed this to happen, HE has a plan to get through it! I believe that he had a plan for Peter, and he has a plan for me. So, Peter, look up, and focus on the Lord! And, get back into the Lords boat!

Danni
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He will answer your prayers in a way you never thought possible, and beyond your wildest dreams!!

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [his] purpose. Romans 8:28

For several years now I have worked hard to over come this illness called Bipolar Disorder. I have worked on my diet, done my exercise and taken my medications religiously. I have studied the scriptures and said my prayers because in the end, I really do feel better when I follow this routine.

When I lost my house and my housing benefits, I said "that's ok, it's time I went on my own anyway"! No more food stamps and no more social programs. I am going to do it on my own.

But, there was still one benefit that I recieved because of this illness, and I am not ready to give it up. And, that is my Social Security. Seven years ago the government agreed to help me every month with money to pay bills and buy food with. Because I have this illness called Bipolar Disorder.

Today I received a letter in the mail from the Social Security Administration. It said "after reviewing your case we have decided that you are no longer sick enough to be considered eligible for Social Security"! They told me that I could ask for a appeal of my case, but if I was not proven to be still sick, they would close my case. No more money! I really am on my own!

Now, this puts me in kind of a pickle. Two thirds of my income comes from Social Security. I knew that someday this would happen, but I hoped it would be awhile. I didn't think it would come this soon. I have spent five years working on getting better from this illness. I have worked hard proving that I am no longer sick. Now, unless I prove I AM sick. Then, I lose my income.

So what do I do? I can say the words, "God will provide"! But, I must admit I am still scared to death. I seriously doubt that I will appeal this decision. What is the point. I will simply have to work more. God definitely will provide. I believe that. Yet, I am afraid. I am scared!!

He will answer your prayers in a way you never thought possible, and beyond your wildest dreams!! [There is] therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. Romans 8:1 I pray now for strength and God's leading on what should happen next in my life.

Danni
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The jumping off place is the bitter end
When it seems like there is nothing to mend
Yet jumping off has another meaning still
Of when you have a new beginning of your will

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11

Some of you may have read the story I got today, the one in Mountain Wings that talked about the "Jumping off place"! What is the jumping off place? The point you reach when your life is so bad that you don't feel like you can possibly go on? The point when you have lost everything material, and you really do want to jump off a bridge, a cliff or some other high up place.

The jumping off place is merely a means to an end. It is said that "suicide is a permanent solution, to a temporary problem"! A very drastic means to a small problem. I've been broke before, but it's not the end of the world. The cool think about something broken, is that it can be fixed. Too many people give up before the problem is fixed!

Or you can think of things this way. Say you lose everything in a stock market crash. Hallelujah, you don't have all those material things slowing you down. You can look at things this way! You only have one way to go, and that is up if you are at the bottom of the barrel. What an exciting adventure this can be!

I have come to a conclusion about the money problems I am encountering. Wherever I am at on this planet, I am right where I am supposed to be in this whole scheme of things. I made some decisions that didn't help, but God always has a solution! And, God's solution is far better than mine. So, while I may be a bit stressed about an earthly problem like finances. God has a better plan, and I can't wait to see what it is.

My Mom always says "if satan can't make you bad, he will make you busy"! And, I believe satan has been keeping me very busy. I am now handing in my pink slip to old satan here! I have other things I would rather be busy with!

Danni
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I've run the race and I'm tired of it
I've stressed out til' I am sick too
I've lost sleep and I've worried myself ragged
So today I am calling in sick of the race

"For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea and all that is in them, and rested on the seventh day; therefore the LORD blessed the sabbath day and made it holy. Exodus 20:11

I think I am going to call in sick of life tomorrow! I think I am going to stay in bed and read a novel. Or write a book, I'm not sure which! After all I've been through lately, I deserve it!!!

Actually I think we call those mental health days. When life has gotten to be so stressed that I forget why I am here. And, I am so tired that I don't even care. I don't think God wants me that way. In fact, I know he doesn't! I know "I" don't want me that way!

God created the heavens and the earth in six days. And, then he rested. He commanded you and I to work for six days and then to rest on the seventh day as well. Do you think he might have had a good reason for that? I do!

So tomorrow I am going to call in sick to life! I am going to stay in my jammies, and I am not going to run off to some place before 10:00 am! I am going to watch a movie if I want to, and I am going to sleep if I want to. I am going to read the Bible if I want, and I am going to pray when I want! That's right! I am calling in sick! Sick of the rat race!

Danni
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Jesus loves me, yes I know
for the Bible tells me so
Your face on the tabloid screen
Doesn't make the hurt less it does seem

For ye are all the children of God by faith in Christ Jesus. Galations 3:26

Every where I turn these days I hear news about the breakup of Jennifer Aniston and Brad Pitt. "The Country Mourns with them", or some other headline that makes me shake my head.

It seems to me as though America is shocked to find that the fairy tale really did end with the pretty hair, and picture perfect face and clothes. You can use plastic surgery to look better on the outside, but it doesn't change anything on the inside.

Brad and Jennifer still had problems. They are still very real human beings even though their lives have been put on by the press as being this fairy tale. The press is trying to figure out "what went wrong"? Well, I can tell you that having a camera in your face every place you go cannot help things. Having every move you make scrutinized is hard to deal with too.

The divorce rate in America is way too high already. Every couple that divorces every day of the year hurts just as much as Brad and Jennifer do. Even though the camera's and the tabloids are not there to record it. The cameras may not care about my pain, but it is just as real.

When each of us goes before God, He will look at all of us the same. He loves Brad and Jennifer just as much as he does you and I. God hurts for Brad and Jennifer just as much as he does for you and I! God doesn't want them to divorce, the Bible says that God hates divorce. He wants you and I, and he wants Brad and Jennifer to work our problems out. He doesn't need to read the tabloids to know what is going on.

There is a better way to do things, and there is a better way to look at things. And, that is God's way!

Danni
danniscully(C)copyright 2005


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