Twenty five years ago today I walked out of a hospital in Miami, Oklahoma. I had just completed 28 days of treatment for co-dependency and major depression. My ailments also included, very low self-esteem, shame, regret and grief. My heart was broken over many things I had absolutely no control over. I blamed myself for actions which were conditioned by others. On that day I began to take responsibiltiy for my own life.
Today I walk a very different road. It is a road of self-respect and relief. Relief from many ailments which were inflicted by others, but so many more which I carried of my own free will.
I can honestly say I have laid down the anger and self-blame. I have picked up peace and tranquility. I have laid down the right to be angry, although grief will always be a shadow around my soul. Loss forever leaves a mark in my life. Today I choose to move forward. Today I will begin packing my boxes for the promised land. It is only a city less than 200 miles from where I grew up, but the city itself does not dictate who I am or where I am going in my life. The city is merely the setting of a new life.
When I pack the truck, load up my little car and drive out of this driveway for the last time, my life will be forever changed. Welcome to the promised land my daughter. Words from a loving God who cared whether I lived or died, even if I did not.
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